Monday, March 29, 2010

The Questions That Plague Me

Who knew that writing a bio for your fellow-students at graduate school would be so exhausting?

We're all "distance learners," so in my opinion, this first introduction is rather important. I mean, I've got this fake persona to create, and it's so hard finding the balance between "outlandish" and "too humble."

Of course, I'm kidding.

But really. How "real" should I be? I want to write like I write, but would that be right? On the right, there is objective truth, but then what is left on the left? I fear there is only frilly fluff.

And these are all "academia" people and all that jazz.

...Not interested in being boring.

But no one probably cares anyway.

I was thinking about words like "wanderlust," "whithersoever," and "whilst," and quite frankly, those words seem appropriate to me. Should I let my true self shine through? Or should I hide behind a facade of boring normalcy.

These questions plague me.

I wonder what it will be like to do real work?

Friday, March 19, 2010

SWEET TOENAILS!

"Well, I went and done it, Pa."

"What'd you did, Ma?"

"I got some a that 'OCD in a Bottle,' and I done cleaned out every drawer and closet in this here house of our'n."

"Well, SWEET TOENAILS! You done did it! Shor'nuf! Lets eat off of the tile in that-thar kitchen."

"Well, aint that what it's fer, anywayz?"

Friday, March 5, 2010

Artsy Susies Share a Common Thread

They thrive in brokenness.

I've often wondered why I don't feel the need to have thinCheck Spellinggs hoity-toity and organized. I don't understand "clean house OCD." I mean, I enjoy having things in order; I just prefer taking my house from a state of chaos to a state of perfection. Trying to live in a constant state of wonderfulness is not something that makes me tick. I wish it did. I want some hoity-toity juice in my lemonade, but I can't buy any at the health-food store.

I'll admit it. I like the ups and downs of life.

I visited my grandma at the nursing home tonight. As we walked closely by an impressionistic painting, we took note of the use of a single LINE to draw the legs on the people walking in the rain. I owe much of my "slap it together and call it good" tendencies to Nanny. Some people would call this a curse, but I'm blessed by her gift. She's a painter. I've painted a thing or two. We both prefer our pictures to be looked at from afar.

I guess we're both impressionists.

But maybe "Artsy Susies" arent so bad. We all could take a step back now and then. Sometimes our lives don't seem to make a lot of sense. They're jumbled and confusing and lack focus. Looking at things right in front of our eyes sometimes gets us down. We're broken due to many experiences that we've been blessed to endure.

But with those broken and confusing lines, blotches, and smudgy areas, God goes and "pulls a Monet." He's gifted like that. I can't see it, but I know it's there.